Not Enough

The music flows through my veins
My heart beating against my chest
Quickening as the tempo becomes faster
and faster

Louder and louder
as my hair stands on end
Goosebumps appear on my arms
chills running down my spine

Never fading
excitement buzzing through me
as my foot taps uncontrollably
Feverishly

My mind drifting to another place
a place of beauty
terror
sadness
pain
Emotions flowing through the music

The music is like a drug
not getting enough
Making my insides go crazy

Dreaming
but, wide awake
stuck in between
Frozen in place
waiting for the music to release me
but truly not wanting for the time to come

Waiting
Dreading
Not being able to get enough
But wanting to be in control.